Wednesday, April 18, 2007
I can't erase what ever that happened, i know it's my fault for all. I blame on the drinks that made me totally gone and didn't know what happened after. And you saw everything that happened. I didn't even know you were there, i cannot push the blame on the drinks.
I can only blame it on why didn't i control with the drinkings. I'm sorry.
If there's a chance, i'll make things better. You say there are lotsa of girls around me, but all are friends and treating me just like a little brother. You know i didn't flirt around right. It's only what happened that night that made me lost everything of you and it wasn't what i wanted, i swear.
But it's useless sigh. all i can is to blog how i feel. there's never enough time for me to clear things out. I'm disappointed too, but i didn't regret knowing you. Even if it brought me much disappointment and faults that lies with me. At least i knew for once what i wanted. There's one more chance, i'll still know you, and this time i know what i'll do. I haven't chased a girl b4 after 2yrs, till now. You wouldn't believe, but it's true that i didn't take initiative for so long. But it makes me want to hide myself away again. And all i know is that i learnt something this time the hard and painful way.
buries everything, if ever i could.
Jovi back to the past 3:43 AM
